So, I got my insurance back, and I’ve made an appt to see my pdoc this coming Friday. I’m not going to tell him I’m off my meds straight away, first I’ll ask him some questions about the long term effects of them, see how honest he is with me, and if he’s less than honest, I’ll probably find a new doc or just stop going altogether. I have enough drugs to last me the rest of my downward titration anyhow. I’ll probably just ask for a script of zyprexa for ‘as needed moments’ (no more than one week) and be on my way.
I’m going to talk to him about maybe doing IPSRT again, just as a refresher–or perhaps *gulp* going back into therapy. I really feel like after being in therapy for SO DAMN LONG there isn’t much they can tell me that I don’t know, and after my last appt that proved true enough. But, maybe I’ll give it a shot anyhow. I’m sure once I start to crack I might just need someone to talk things out with…We shall see!
Today is day 4 on 20 mgs and I’m still doing great.
Sunshine and Rage 